I’d say that writing this has been hard, but really everything’s been hard recently. It’s like some cognitive block has been put on me, and I think I know what the culprit is, but lord knows if in my current capacity I have it right.
It’s simple, really. It’s just medicine. It’s moderating my depression. And while it’s helpful to not have depression, it’s less helpful to have such an aggressive drop to have no motivation or mental energy to expend on anything. It feels like wading through brain muck, the mental energy required to even pull this post together, much less be conscious for more than I’d care to be conscious.
But eh.
Maybe I’ll get better.
Maybe I won’t.